Feeling alienated~

Hi people..
Being home after 2 months of hell-ish experience due to exams may seem like a breather...
but here I am kind of wishing I was back on campus, just doing my own things and going where ever I wanted and spending my time with whoever I wanted...
Being back at home, I have to compromise, and that seems to be heavy shackles to me since most of my time at campus, no one tells me how I should spend my time otherwise, other than me knowing my obligation is to study, study and study...

Now that I am done with my studies, with the prospect of getting pass to year 5 of my MBBS, I should be celebrating out there...
With friends,
With those special to me,
Especially with my family...
But how can I feel that way when I am trapped and confined to my house with no room for freedom without having every action I do to be scrutinized if it is appropriate or not.
I want to drive out of the house, meet up with friends~
I wanna just go to the park when there is a nice weather up and about, and just enjoy it, even though we would work out a sweat just by standing outside there for other good purpose other than to keep each other company...
I wanna go window-shopping for no good reason, other than to ogle and admire clothes that I know I can't afford at the moment...
I wanna go watch movies with someone who shares my interest and does not think movies as a waste of time and money...

Maybe I have been away from home a bit too long...
Freedom has made me explored the vast world and now I fret when I am to return to the nest~
When I am at home, I do love my family, but I have to say, everyone is so different now that I feel like I have been missing out on a lot of stuff that just makes me feel even more of a stranger than at home...
What happened to the strict upbringing that was instilled into me?
Why is my brother allowed such leniency?
Why are they allowed to get away with murder, while I get judged for sharing everything with my parents...

I feel like a stranger at home now...
I am bound by the rules of the household that appears to me my cage, which I walked into willingly and without a second thought...

I'm tired, so I'm going to go nap awhile~

Piece~

What has been happening lately?

Hey people ^^ 

Wondering what's with the getup? it's just me wearing a set of floral clothes I bought back from Langkawi awhile back lol

Funnily enough, many people were amused by the fact I actually took the time to wear the matching set and wear it down to dinner no less...

*shrugs* owh well, what's the point of looking awesome if no one is able to appreciate it right? lol~

As the title per se, my classes are over for now, and the final year assessment will be underway in 2 weeks time... lots a time to study, and lotsa things to read too, T.T

Hopefully this year I am able to pass it without sitting for any viva or supple papers...

and look forward to a 6 week holiday when my finals are over before the start of 5th year (IF i GET into 5th year to begin with... Hey, one has to be realistic no?)

Alot of things to take in this past few weeks...

Knowing those who are actually there for me

Knowing that there are those who are mercilessly calculative that should you be unable to pay back what they seem as a debt, they will without fail, get it from you in the end...

Heck if I was like that, I would be a millionaire since I should be able to pull in favors and what not from many acquaintances out there...

Why the use of the word acquaintances?

Aaaaah for those who don't know, acquaintance is the term I use personally to describe hi-bye friends, who just stick around you for the perks and benefits, and disappear when there is nothing left for them...

90% of who we know these days are hi-bye friends, even if we would not like to admit it, but it is true.

Then again, the subject for debating such a topic will be left to another post in the near future ^^

Gives me something to write up on eh?

The haze up north here is somewhat tolerable I guess...

Doesn't mean I won't think twice when I decide to go jogging outside in the morning or evenings.

I'd still rather coup in my room, and not going out to enjoy myself .

I mean, let's face it, we can't really go enjoy ourselves when we have those that matter to us dearly sitting for exams and being moody all the time no?

Imagine if you will, your best friend going through a tough time.

Even though you have just finished your exams and ought to be celebrating, there's just a part of you that says 'NO, you don't deserve to be a friend if you just go off celebrating while ending up bragging about the fun times you just had outside when your friend is stuck inside campus for the next 1-2 weeks or so with their finals'

Admit it, there are many of you who would just shrug it off and say hey, I deserve some R&R after all that stress

but do your friend a favor... 

If you DO happen to go out and enjoy yourself, try to keep it on a down low and avoid telling every single little detail to that friend of yours who is already dying and craving for freedom while bullying their brains to absorb as much details as they can.

They are human too, and being inconsiderate can go very deep into someone else's impression about you...

Believe me,

It does....

Piece~

The end of exams?

Hi there~!
With the clock showing 5pm today, it marks the last 21 hours more to go before the start of the last paper of my exam XD
Sure I want this over with and I' already looking forward to my trip home, where I might just got for a family holiday for this year's chinese new year holiday *jumps with joy*
but seriously I am getting a bit too ahead of myself...
I have NO IDEA what is going to come out for tomorrow's paper.
I mean, literally ZERO~
What can I say?
The lecturers didn't leave anything behind, and I kinda lost my paper which tells me the topics that have been taught in the last 5 months, so I am technically doomed >.<
To top it off, I have not attended the posting for this particular two subjects, and so I am completely clueless about both subjects.
*shrugs* owh well, will just randomly read and hope I am able to crap up something in tomorrow's paper?

I have yet to start taking pictures again with my own camera, so sorry, so nothing interesting to upload at the moment~
I started to note that I tend to take random pictures off google that seem to be related to my posts so that they don't seem go colorless and down.
Owh well, must have been a subconscious move of my own to ensure that there is at least ONE picture in every post.
Why? don't ask, ask my subconscious XD

*Yawn* this weather is not helping, I should be trying to study at the moment.
Gosh, not to mention I still have hospital sessions tomorrow and the day after, that means I won't be able to go back until Friday evening~
It's ok, I know home is just waiting for my return *jumps with joy*
The weather is so hot, it's making me sooo.... lazy, hehe~
Sue me, this drowsy feeling is not helping at all.
Guess I'll go to nap awhile before I start struggling in ENT and opthalmology~

Signing off here (at the moment), piece~

Pre-final exam pressure and doubts~

"There are times where one can be surrounded by a sea of people, and yet feel so alone... #fact"
-Fai fai No-Reason

The title says it all I think...
The usual feeling of doubts and insecurity.

The doubt of everything that I already know and about everyone around me.
The uneasy feelings about almost anything that has come to pass in the last year...
Insecurity?
Friends?
Hypocrisy? (my new favorite word)
Taking for granted?

Relationship?
Actually caring for something?
Doubts about caring?
Knowing more about myself that I seem to previously deny~
Caring about something until it hurts and unable to do anything about it~
Trying to please everyone without anything in it for myself~

I have to start learning how to prioritize my own happiness and interests...

So many have told me so and maybe only a handful of those actually mattered.
But the problem is, where do I start?

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
With the incoming storm, I can hear the heavy downpour even without straining myself to hear it.
The fog and mists around me is making things seem too depressing and isolates me even further~
I wonder if I make it out of this, what will be waiting for me on the other side...

Piece~

Things don't seem right...

This may sound like I'm quitting... but I don't feel like reading anymore...

No matter what I read, nothing tends to stay in my head long enough for me to absorb it.

What happened to the good old days where everything is standardized and all you have to do is understand and apply it when the question turns out in the exam?

Trying to take new things in at the moment, but I think somehow my illness during my youth which I seemingly escaped without any side effect may very well have left something after all.

My memory seems superficial when compared to others.

I can't memorize things as easily as other students.

Maybe this is just not for me...

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast for tomorrow:

Looking at my friends in the rain waiting patiently under big umbrellas, I feel guilt and shame.

For who am I to join them when I don't belong to anywhere?

I close my eyes for now and walk in the rain, with the hope that it will take me to somewhere I can spend my life without regrets.

Piece~

Feeling life returning?

"Friends are those who are there for you,
Not necessarily all the time,
but when you need them more than ever"
-Fai fai No-Reason


Aaaah, sunset at AIMST university with the medical faculty and the library building from the 5th floor apartment of the guyZ hostel..
Mesmerizing huh? lol... (so not XD)

AND SO!!


The final paper is at hand!!
With the ospe/osce paper close up (on the 14th July; my mom's burfday incidently XD) the smell of freedon has never been stronger, tempting us in a false pretense of freedom at this very moment, thus not really studying what we ought to be studying.. (this explains me blogging and not studying I guess, hehe)
With no idea whats coming out for the active station this Thursday (Me hoping for CPR or laryngoscopy XD) I shall blindly go through anatomy and clinical notes. Not to mention my pathology log book and my microbiology log book which I haven't so much as open the cover O.o
Oh, wait a minute..
I did open the microbio cover earlier on *thumbs up* A miracle I say so myself ^^
Been rolling around my room the entire day as if I reached independence from the world >.<

The notice that came up right after the last paper yesterday..
Apparently since my name starts with F, I have the honors of ending up in group A
Check out what time I'm supposed to be there O.o



Awesomeness, 8am...

Oh well, at least this is the last stretch.
Its been mentally tiring this last entire month...
No more studying non stop till I look like my friend here lol



Yeong Khey is so gonna kill me for this XD
Speaking of friends, recently I have been looking around and redefining what actually qualifies as friends in my dictionary.
I mean, I have always thought keeping people at bay is for the best.
Then again, I have also learned that you can't do everything by yourself.

o.O Contradictory ideas O.o

But let's leave that to be debated in another post shall we?
lol
I mean seriously ^^
On a lighter note, my "non-mobile" friend Sita made it to the cafeteria after the psycho paper the other day..
She was soooo happy with her soya drink and her packet of nasi lemak *thumbs up*


Although she had some difficulty opening the bottle tho XD
Not to fear!!
An expert was nearby to help!! lol Rome opened it up in a blink of an eye
*thumbs up*



Good for you eh Sita? ^^

I think I can't seem to remember the last time I typed out a post on my blog with such a carefree attitude.
My mind seems at peace for a moment (a miracle for all the things that I have been going through lately) and I'm kinda happy ^^
Hope it stays that way tho XD

Hmmm, I feel like trying something new in my blog.
Picked this from a Kdrama, and the concept seems really interesting.
Here it goes (dun laugh) >.<

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast for tomorrow:
Even when the clouds seems gloomy and dark, and the heavy rain makes it all dull and gray,
I know that if I look hard enough, I will have friends that are huddling together braving the storm, and that a bright horizon is coming if I wait long enough.

Piece~
(it just occured to me that anyone who reads this blog undestands what i mean by the word 'piece'
Do leave a comment or a message on the cbox if you do know what I mean by 'piece'" XD

Exam last week, but I feel like crap

"Stares at the notes..
I can't take this anymore... nothing is going in my head...
The exam has gone on to long.. T.T"
-Fai fai No-Reason

Tomorrow is the last theory paper and the coming thursday is the last day of the exam with my Osce/Ospe paper..
I'm close to tears at the moment, the stress is getting to me I guess..
Breaking down seem so easy these days.
I suck with exam...


period...


As usual, I disagree with the fact we have to memorize every single thing...
Why can't we have like an exam using mostly MCQ negative marking or sumthin with assignments to help us?
No wonder there are students who actually commit suicide to the stress of life expectations.
Its just... no escape from it..
Its like a weight, constantly on ur head.



There you have it XD (literally)

I told a friend lately when she mentioned that she hates growing up,
That she would always want to be her mom's little gurl..
I told her that its ok to not want to grow up.
We can all take baby steps in life,
Taking one step at a time, overcoming life's hurdles one at a time..
Although I have to admit, I'm currently barely crawling XD
Dragging myself to keep up with the people around me as they literally jog or run past me.

Am I on the right path? I'm stumbling blindly not knowing.

Here I pray and hope for the best for every one sincerely I admit,
Although I stumble and may not make it,
Hey, life goes on..

Piece~

Exam papers are thinning off, yippie...

"When a 'friend' starts to hold a grudge,
When a 'friend' starts telling stuff about you to people,
Its high time you step back and realize,
Those who deserve the title 'friend' are a few"
-Fai fai No-Reason



Like the title implies, there's only 3 papers left I think O.o
Look at that idiot, smirking away...

And oh, i got a haircut XD


There's the psycho elective paper tomorrow, the LAST system paper on monday, Endocrine and reproductive system and OSPE/OSCE paper on the coming thursday...
Somehow I can still remember the times when I was typing the 1st blog post about the exam >.<

Depression state before the exam...

Notice the hair? it was longer back then XD


(Just got back to PNG from my last short 3 day stint back home)

What to do? I'm hoping to pass all my papers and go home ASAP, but with my performance, I am thinking that i will sit for at least 1 supplement paper soon.
So, can't be too happy if I don't see my name among the viva list...
I was finishing up my 4th core paper that day and without realizing it, I broke down..
Weird eh?
Maybe its the stress, I dunno...
I really feel that exams are a real pain for students.
Especially the fact that the student is required to mug up whatever they can with sleepless nights,
"Vomit" it out during the exam (not literally XD)
and then wiping the memory clean for space for the next paper O.o


I am missing the normal times..
What happen to the times where we can randomly call up a friend after class and say," Hey, lets go somewhere, eat great food, maybe catch a movie, and do some crazy stuff while we're at it?"

(found this picture which was taken a while back)

daym we had fun XD

Hope to finish off this exam peacefully,
only a few days more to go now.
FIGHTING!! (lol watching too much korean dramas)
ja, matta ne~
Piece out~

3 papers down... How many more?

Well, there's the 3 system papers, Ospe/osce paper, and 2 elective papers O.o

I still dun understand so as to why elective papers are sitting right in the middle of our finals?

Once again, the exam division has proved itself yet again that is has nothing better to do, but making student's life miserable while kicking back and relaxing in their office doing NOTHIN that seems to be in their job description ==> PaThEtIc..

Just posting up here something for the sake of it I guess, so no pics XD

what else.. hmmm..




Oh yeah yea yea...




I got a haircut XD finally~
>.<
Piece out~

Exam blues..

pLease sumone..
I need this exam over with..
Its driving me up the wall O.o
This pic was taken by rome the other day when we were driving across the penang bridge,
Pweeeeety no?

*slaps self*

I'm trying to occupy myself for 5-10 minutes by ranting stuffs on my blog, but I can't seem to think of anything non exam related at the moment..
I have to go to the admin building later to pick up my exam slip for this friday's paper..

*slaps self*

ish this is annoying...

As a side note, me showing my collection of mcd cups that i finished collecting a month back XD
Just to gloat here of course, they have no monetary value >.<
Just memories of friends going out almost every week without fail for 3 weeks to mcd to faithfully collect the cup for no apparent reason XD

till the 1st paper is over,
Piece peeps...

Exams drivin me up the wall

"Don't bother pleasure other people,
Speak frankly and don't dwell on a fact,
For a hidden thought is like a ripple,
and such ripples don't leave your mind intact"
-Fai fai No-Reason

I lurv this pic when I was randomly googling pics to put up here lol

Yesh as the title implies, it really is happening XD
well, not literally, but you get the idea >.<
With such stress on me, I am still taking my time and doing things at my pace.
I mean, my health is still important no?
I will not read and abandon my health just so that i am able to TRY and read everything and memorize EVERYTHING before the exam
I say NO!

Examz are important yesh I admit, but when my lifestyle and health is concerned...

Oh yea, dats right XD

lol

and also I can't understand the exam system nowadays.
I feel that the anonymity of students who failed a paper is something that should be upheld
No one has to publicly announced that a particular person has failed and no longer eligible to sit for the final exam.
Be it facebook, or the class mail.. seriously, it sux.. big time...
Yes it is... O.o

I mean, this is when a Student portal comes in handy..
Every and i mean EVERY student has a user and self selected pw in the student portal where they are updated on EVERYTHING that is concerned about the student.
Be it about:
-fees
-days of absentees
-results of exams
-private feedback from lecturers
-assignments needed to be handed up
-last and not least, ELIGIBILITY TO SIT FOR EXAMZ!!!

Having to go all the way to the admin building just to find out how well you scored is shtupid..
Exam division and IT department people seriously have it easy, they do nothing all day long, and they get paid.. wow..

I mean, Aimst university has a long way to go in terms of managing students.
If only they took student suggestions seriously.
If this is impossible, at least look up to other universities that have been around long enough to manage their students effectively enough..

Lol well syuu, not much but I DID update no?
hehe, will update more often as time and situation allows, cheers ^^
piece out~

Finals for year 2 are on the waaaay~ So wat now?

"Friends are like insects,
Some are beautiful like butterflies,
Yet there are those who sting like bees,
Worst still, are those who stink like stink bugs"
-Fai fai No-Reason

Lol had to post this up when i found it randomly over the net >.< Looks like I need to humor myself once in awhile by doing stupid stuff or just doing nothing for short XD
But somtimes, we haf to differentiate things that are real, and important from the things that dun really matter.
Such times are where you question urself and ask which one is more important? what should you prioritize?
I found myself making such a decision yesterday.
Of course for OBVIOUS reasons, nothing will come up here XD
Just wanted to point out that in every situation, there IS a choice.
One doesn't actually have to bend down to another's will just because there SEEM to be NO OTHER choices.
If you dun like the choices available to you, just make new ones and stick to it.
AND again if it doesn;t work, just rewind, take a breather, and repick a new decision..
How hard can it be?

Just had a sudden mind to blog. Will blog more later after sports i think ^^

L8r peeps ^^
Piece out~

Continous Assessment... AGAIN?!@#!

Yesh people, again XD the 6th one this year i think >.<

That makes it an average exam every 2 months? and to top it off, once this CA is over, its the finals for year 2 around the corner O.o *gasps*
I am soooo not ready for it..
I mean come on, I still remember the time i was waltzing out of the medical faculty after the end of my year 1 paper >.<

Been watching korean dramas recently.
Boys over flower (did i get that right?)
and Dream High

So far both were amuuuzing in their own ways, but I think I kinda enjoyed Dream High more, as it was musical based XD
*starts surfing the net hunting for OSTs* XD
omg omg guilty guilty *slaps self* examz around the corner, how could you!! (points to self in the mirror)

for the record, I have been doing sumthin dumb as I am currently facing my exam and shudn't be doing it at such a time..
I...






have...






been...







skipping XD
yea, skipping.. Saw a character in Dream High that lost alot of weight by mainly changing her eating lifestyle and skipping as her main exercise.
It is possible?
Hmm *vaguely remembers the facts he read about skipping as an exercise*
Oh well, today was the 2nd time.. (started yesterday) and I thought it was pretty fine, seeing that I never skipped PROPERLY in my life XD
I mean come on, skipping while ur moving/walking/running/etc is not the skipping we're talking about when we do proper exercise..
Its those skipping on one foot or hopping with both feet on the ground, or sumthin like dat.
I couldn't even make it to 10 in the first 20 minutes.
By the end of the hour, i was able to skip around 30 without stopping.
Today I managed to go around 60 without stopping, but i shouldn't be pushing it.
Still going kinda slow tho XD (steady as I go >.<)
Managed to push to a record of 120 tho ^^ (hurray for me ^^ best private record for now)

Will end it here for today ^^ and sry peeps, no pics this time.

Nite nite ^^
Piece out~

ERS exams around the corner

Hey peeps ^^ decided that I had to put up something since it has been a while. Unfortunately, I dun really have all my Lon-un pics yet XD I kinda left all my pictures in my mom's lappie, so I am now stuck wif almost ZERO pics, hehe...

Just ate lunch here at the campus and decided to skip a physio IRS (dats interactive review session) and work on my SSM and read up on my psycho mid term exam which is today XD I only printed out the notes yesterday and canned through it this afternoon. Hope its good enough to answer all the MCQs that they are going to throw at us during the exam..

Yesh people, you read it right XD My psychology elective paper is having a mid term exam using MCQ questions ONLY O.o and to top it off, it will be done in the hall where the brilliant minds of the centry (dats us XD) will be able to hold a "conference" and convene to agree on the most probable answer for the questions at hand..

Aite will proceed with work now, will update soon as time allows ^^ *pinky promise*

Piece~

RS examination around the corner

Ahha people... i actually had my CVS examination barely 4 weeks back and now i haf to sit for my next system exam.. Why so fast you say? Well, logically speaking , we haf a number of systems to cover within our 2nd year, and starting next year, we actually will start our "clinical" years so to speak.. meaning we will start visiting the hospital to start using what we haf actually learned for the first 2 years of our course.

After hearing a few people reminding me that my blog has been dead for some time from a few different people.. i think i kinda forgot my previous resolve to actually blog stuff i want the world to hear through this simple outlet of mine. I mean, where else can i do such simple and random things where passerby's can actually laugh along or relate to whatever i am going through at the moment.

At the moment, i am loaning my mom's lappie at the moment. Yesh, the "love-of-my-life" ish currently "sick" and i haf no idea wats wrong wif her.. So i haf decided to let my bros take it back and shoot the shop that does my lappie until she's all well and better again. I mean, there HAS to be something wrong right? She has been hanging on me like every 10 minute of usage, and even hangs on simple actions like opening a window or even executing a program e.g. google chrome or mozilla firefox. This has seriously affected my studies as i couldn't even review my powerpoints and stuff like dat.. How about printing you say?

Well, its kinda true that i do haf a laser jet printer on standby in my room to print any notes that i need, but i think that printing out 4 weeks worth of notes at such a short notice is kind of unfeasible. After all, i don't think that i will be reading all the notes i would be printing since that a majority of the notes ARE kinda repetitive. I once mentioned to a few people," If i would receive a dollar for every time i heard the word bronchial asthma through out our respiratory system lectures, i would be a millionaire by the time we sat for our continuous assessment" XD
I mean, it IS true right? The following words would be a natural thing to hear through out the last 4 weeks of my life:
-Emphysema
-Chronic Bronchitis
-Bronchial asthma
-Pleural effusion
-Pneumothorax
-Pleuritis
-ARDS (acute respiratory distress syndrome)
-Salbutemol
-Omalizumab
-Trimetoprim
-Vancomycin
-Accuinhaler
-Metered dose inhaler
-Dry powder inhaler
-Erythromycin
-etc etc and many more XD

I mean what can i say? The moment i decided to take this rough path as my life long journey, i have resigned to the fact that it will not be easy, and even if it turns rough, i still have my family and friends to keep me company and comfort me along the way..
Speaking of friends, as of late, i believed that there are friends that i got close to, some that distanced themselves from me, friends that i got to know better, and there are also friends that just do not get the hint that i am giving them, even after i have said it in their face... *sigh* i guess not everyone are gifted to detect sarcasm or tones of dislikes in an everyday conversation..

So, the one thing i would like to say here is that " I HAVE NOT CHANGED" and even if i did, it would be for the better of me or a course of action that i feel is best for me.. There will be some things of me that will not change, i will have to deal with that, but the small parts of me that do change along the way does not mean i completely change as an individual

Will stop here for now ^^ will continue more rantings in the future as i haf the time to take the pictures out of my fon ^^

Piece for now~

Exam is getting to me..

Opening this post would be a beautiful snapshot i took as the sun went down... Pweeety huh?

Hie peeps ^^ yea its that time again, the examZ... Only this time its the FinalZ, the exam that will determine if u make it to the 2nd year, and if not you haf to site for supplementary, and if not u haf to resit the year, and if not!!!!! *GASP* i can't think that far ahead yet... do forgive me XD

Tomorro i'll be having my 2nd paper for this exam, HBM 2 which consists primarily of biostatistics and epidemiology. How cool is dat? 2 subjects in 1 paper, making the total length of this paper 3 hour *gawks wif open mouth and disbelief expression* yea u heard that right, 3 hours... I though that was ALOOOOT of time!!

BUT!!

I was proven wrong in my last paper on Monday where we sat for HBM 1 (Ethics and Sociology) at the Great Hall from 9 - 12 pm.. I fipped through the paper and answered the 1st half only to notice that an hour and 40 minutes hadf flown by.. *facepalm* had to speed up my writing and thinking capabilities then... *BRAIN MODE OVERDRIVE!!*

regretted that later as i had a major headache after lunch and was forced to sleep it off XD

but hey, 1 paper down.. 5 more to go!!! *jumps in joy* to my estimation and precise calculation, 16.7% of the exam is over, nothing big to celebrate about *sigh in depression* but hey, its the 1st step no?

Last week during my studies, took a break to go to mcd and collected my 3rd FIFA mcd cup XD will haf to get sumone to buy me again this week to get the 4th cup, hehe.. i'm such a sucker for these kind of things XDBEHOLD!! the 3 cups that i now haf stashed in my room now ^^ me and Eric went out to study... apparently studying outside also makes alot of difference ya know? as long as its once in awhile, i dun mind XD A special shoutout here to Joey (my roomie)

and Sharon, who have finally reached the big twoo owh.. Sharon happily walking to the cake to blow it out Closing up since i can't type much, since i haf to go to sleep to make sure that i'm awake for tomorrow's paper... will type out more stuff if i ever get the chance to.
Signing off, piece~

RaNdOm pics!
This cat gave birth sumwhere on campus already.. will try and get the pics of the kittens ^^

CA4 is upon me

*deep breathes here* in less than 24 hours, the horror and terror will be unleashed upon the inhabitants of LT1, who call themselves MBBS batch15... The sky turn dark, the earth tremble, the wind screaming in agony and the heavens rain down upon the earth, as if weeping for the poor souls that cannot escape their cruel fate.. Oh, fate is cruel...

daym, if i haf the time to update my blog, sumthin must be seriously wrong XD

well, just to say i'll be laying my hands off my blog until... friday? hehe... ja, till then ^^

piece