Spending money

Hie guyZ~

Me ish broke at the moment.
Not to say that I have no money at all, lol no, but, let's say that I have things to pay off every month before I can actually spend on myself... Obligations like the monthly rent, internet and phone bills, utility bills, grocery... stuffs like that...

It was someone burfday a few days ago, someone special to me.
For as long as I can remember, burfdays seemed to hold no special meaning to me.
Those days were like any other days, just plain and simple.
Since last year, burfdays seems as bleak as dull as usual, but with that special someone, you tend to hope you are able to spend that entire day with them and hope it never ends.
That someone that you'd do things simply just to make them happy.

I know I promised to blog more often with proper pics, but this lonely feelings and depression don't seem to be very inspiring at the moment, so I will spare my blog readers (if I still have any) of such details.
The next 2 weeks or so will be extremely depressing and lonely, for multiple reasons... All of which I will have to deal with myself and make sure I don't binge eat out of depression and gain back my fitness and shape.

That's all for now, piece~

Doing what we can in these hard times~

Hey guyZ~

Been meaning to get back to blogging but was back at home over the last weekend for a long 4 day break due to Monday and Friday being declared a holiday ^^
Chose to go home as I didn't want to disturb someone dear to me from preparing herself for her end-term test which takes place this very week.
It was for the best, and since I won't be going home for the great chinese new year 1 week break, I thought I should spend this short time back at home instead...
Well, I really hope it was for the best....

We all want to be there for those we love, especially when life seems to be excessively tough on them.
Believe me when I say, it is HEART breaking, and especially heart wrenching when there is little, if not nothing that you can do for them, but just being there and consoling them...
Keeping them company instead of abandoning them...
Consoling them instead of berating them...
Being there for them, even though you are far away...

It's one of the few things why people want a relationship, even when their ex treated them so badly...
The reason why people tend to blindly have faith for a mere glimpse or shimmer of hope that that person may very well be the one..
The reason why people choose to connect to one another, which is simple enough to understand and even simpler to abuse and misuse...

Gosh look at the time...
I have clinical session at the paeds clinic with a specialist in 25 minutes and here I am still at home...
brb when I can~

Piece~

Can't remember~

I can't remember the time I couldn't care less,
Even though it annoyed me more than I'd confess,
Those times where I would numbly run,
Drowning my sorrow, tired under the sun,

I seem to recall how indifferent I felt,
All that mattered was the bulge at my belt,
Then with difficulty I started to mingle,
Although I was perfectly fine being single,

More often than naught I would run away,
For I was happy just spending time by myself,
I couldn't care less what others would say,
Their opinions collecting dust on the top of my shelf,

When someone starts to matter, a trend I would see,
No matter how compromising I would try to be,
They would drift away, slowly but sure,
Being made used of, intentions no longer pure,

Now I start to doubt what I feel,
For if I mattered it would not be this way,
They act as if it is not a big deal,
I think too much apparently, frequently they would say,

For actions speaks louder than words,
Thus I think that I matter only so much,
Such thoughts must be seasonal as the migrating birds,
Diminished are the times I am treated as such,

With this usually things come to an end,
For there is really nothing to mend,
Being taken for granted and neglect is time's corrosion,
Sunk deep beyond salvation into the depths of the ocean.

Happy new year 2014

Well hello there everyone, it is the new year and I am socially bound to wish everyone a happy new year ^^
May you have better luck carrying out your new year resolutions this year, hehe
and on a more serious note, may what ever endeavors you embark on this year be successful and beneficial to you~

and may it bring you closer to your loved ones...

As for me... it brought me closer to ice cream XD

Baskin Robbins Cookies and cream as well as Love Potion... Sweet goodness...

Happy new year people~
Piece~