Can't remember~

I can't remember the time I couldn't care less,
Even though it annoyed me more than I'd confess,
Those times where I would numbly run,
Drowning my sorrow, tired under the sun,

I seem to recall how indifferent I felt,
All that mattered was the bulge at my belt,
Then with difficulty I started to mingle,
Although I was perfectly fine being single,

More often than naught I would run away,
For I was happy just spending time by myself,
I couldn't care less what others would say,
Their opinions collecting dust on the top of my shelf,

When someone starts to matter, a trend I would see,
No matter how compromising I would try to be,
They would drift away, slowly but sure,
Being made used of, intentions no longer pure,

Now I start to doubt what I feel,
For if I mattered it would not be this way,
They act as if it is not a big deal,
I think too much apparently, frequently they would say,

For actions speaks louder than words,
Thus I think that I matter only so much,
Such thoughts must be seasonal as the migrating birds,
Diminished are the times I am treated as such,

With this usually things come to an end,
For there is really nothing to mend,
Being taken for granted and neglect is time's corrosion,
Sunk deep beyond salvation into the depths of the ocean.