Self motivation~

Hey people ^^ 

Been abit too long since my last post so I decided to post sumthin up XD

Yesh I know that is kinda of a lame excuse, but hey, at least I AM motivated to do so...

AND SO~!

My post today would be playing around self motivation...

How can I start things off?

Well, a friend once told me to be happy, the first step would be WANTING to be happy.
For without the WANT, there won't be a WILL to BE happy, understand where I am going here?
That special person had his/her bad times as well, and I also told her that it is not about believing that you don't deserve it, but instead KNOWING that you DO DESERVE IT~!
and don't let others tell you otherwise, for your happiness is priority number 1~!

Yesh you heard me~!

For if YOU do not want to be happy, no one can help you, for they can only stand by your side and wait until you want to be happy.
It's not that they do not care, but they too are human, and they are at a lost in telling someone who DOESN'T want to be HAPPY to BE HAPPY instead...
It just doesn't work that way, and you'd hate them even more for being... well, so tactless....

It is as simple as that, if it DOES make YOU HAPPY, DO IT~!
Regardless of what others tell you, for living with a regret of not doing something (wondering what if I had done it?), is much worst compared to living a life of regretting of doing something you want..

Finding that balance to carry on... even when you WANT to be happy can be tough, believe me, I have gone through such a phase.
The only thing I can do for another, especially those that matter to me is to BE THERE for them, constantly encouraging them that the grass is greener on the other side, and support them on that tight rope~
For life has its ups and downs, and nothing in my power can change that..

But it is the memories that shape our life and personalities to such a degree that it defines the very nature of ourselves.
HOWEVER the one good thing is that we have the POWER how we choose to see things, to PERCEIVE things, if you will...
and it is that WILL POWER that decide things, rather than those around you..

Last and not least...
The question that plagues most students that are struggling to keep up with family expectations and to somehow get their place in society....
What if I don't achieve properly in my academics?
What if I am deemed too young and immature?
REMEMBER~!

Remember this post when your sad and frustrated with yourself or with others, or with anyone..
For instead of trying to better ourselves for their sake, we can choose to better ourselves for OUR OWN SAKE and there is nothing stronger than the will of a person who has set his/her mind to it..

I quote a special person to me saying this to me once...
"Hey, you won't believe what I can do when I set my mind to it~"
and that has been one of my life holdings up till now..
It hasn't gone wrong since~

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
There is a small incoming black cloud in the distant and strong winds blow ominously from the north.
I worry what this may bring, especially a dear one of mine is facing those winds alone~
I pray and hope that things will get better, and that I am able to come to her aide when the time comes~

Piece~

Change.. Hopeful things to come... Or not?

Hey guyz, here I am again signing in.

I'm on a commuting train as I type this out on my phone, trying to chase away the sleepiness that is pounding away at me.

On the plus side, today I am on  the new KTM commuter train for the first time ever and I have to admit, if all the trains were like this, I wouldn't mind taking the train any time XD

*picture insert*

Would you look at that?
They even had small screens playing loops of cartoons~ Watched Tom and Jerry in what seemed a very looong time XD

Just when you think the train conditions can get and worse, it just improved itself without me ever knowing about it.

I guess dats what my post is about this time.

Somewhat XD

This post is dedicated to CHANGE.

Yesh you read it right, CHANGE...

Choose 2 hope, acknowledging no greater enemy.

After all, being hopeless is the worst thing that can ever happen to a person.

Without hope, there is nothing to drive an individual forward.

We go about our everyday with eh HOPE that we are able to better ourselves..

Don't you agree?

A cute abbreviation of PUSH was quoted by a friend over twitter the other day as well..

PUSH, signifying; Pray until something happens

We do PUSH alot during exams XD

So, with the saying PUSH and CHANGE really mean the same now?

Pray until something happens and choose 2 hope, acknowleding no greater enemy.

Wow, quite inspiring in a way.

Might just make it one of my daily beliefs.

Back to my post today, thus we should always change for the best, be it passively or actively.

Passive change accumulates through experiences, either by self experience or conditioning by their environments.

Ironically we change indefinitely and most of the time, it happens gradually without one's notice.

Thus we should ACTIVELY change ourselves which takes an instantaneous moment to come into effect we choose so.

By choosing our paths actively, we can hope to achieve what we set out to achieve at that moment, and for that simple reason, it continually helps us in moving forward.

*train reaches midvalley megamall*

Wooops time really flew typing this out, will continue otw (on the way back) XD

*later in the evening*

Omg, some idiots tried to pickpocket me twice. First was when I was getting onto the train coach.

Realizing there was a strain at my pockets i flicked my hand generally ay my side and the guy skimpered away.

With that commotion, I then realized that I was on the "ladies only coach".

Looking around me to confirm this (indeed there was no men in sight!) I got off the coach and ran for the nearest, non-full, general coach.

Little did I realize that there were 3 men after me O.o

One raced in front of me to block my entry into the coach.

Two more apparently flanked my sides, ready to pick my pockets I suppose...

I only knew this after a kind hearted malay lady approached me after the train started moving.

She was pregnant and watched helplessly as the scene unraveled right in front of her.

She noted that I moved too much to one side of the door, only allowing one person to attempt their "escapade".

Noting the guy in front of me was being too fishy (he was having his back at me while going left and right to block my entry), my hands went straight to my side pockets.

That immediately deterred them as my hands smacked away an approaching hand already at my side cargo pockets O,o

Amazing eh?

They darted off as the train was about to depart.

The kind hearted lady asked if I was ok and if anything was missing.

Kindness apparently is still out there in the world, but it is a dying resource which is being wiped out solely by wariness and disbelief of strangers.

A shout out here to all those that do good, keep up the good work.

We may not get paid, but why not help if it doesn't kill us?

A shoutout here to a dear friend of mine who is going though rough times, so far away, helpless and can't be there to comfort her, only to give words of comfort over whatsapp...
A reminder that your happiness matters and it should be your priority. Anyone who objects that, ain't your friend *pats head*
and sorry for the delay in posting up this post, was out the whole day XD

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:

The weather seem to hold for now with a simple breeze blowing by,

What changes it may bring I do not know,
But what I know is that I will face them with a different mindset this time~

Piece~

Coping with what is to come

Hey avid blog readers~!
Its hard to turn a new leaf and expect everything to change the moment you decide to but hey, hoping to change is the first step no?
Nothing will change unless one wants it to change I believe.
Don't get me wrong, my way of thinking still remains, but I will try to see things back on the brighter note.
Why should I let such a thing pull me down?
Things happen and I will continue living, life goes on.
It took me a whole day of starving myself and not eating (was moping in the corner about me needing to take a supplementary paper) to make me see that its not the end of the world and sumhow things will work out...
That, will be my new phrase...

"Somehow, things will work out... definitely"

Having said that, we should always strive to continue forward rather than looking back...

Very true actually... and I have to admit that I have been looking back at past chapters far too long than I would like to admit...
Acting strong has always been something I believe has always been my front in the view of other people.
I don't want people comforting me with fake concerns.
I don't want people to see that I care too much.
What else CAN I do?

After all, happiness comes and goes with the absence of sadness.
and people tend to forget that there is a REASON behind everything (something I would like to believe)
When a person walks out of your life, it's to make way for a new person that may very well be important.
When a person betrays you, you then know who are your actual friends~
We always forget to value what we ALREADY HAVE that has given us happiness all the while, and instead CHASE AFTER things that we THINK will give us happiness~

All the hypocrisy these days (yesh hypocrisy is also one of my new favourite words <3) are made available to me everyday, making it almost nauseating.
Sure in minute amounts we don't actually feel it.
But apparently on campus I have been exposed to levels that may seem somewhat life-threatening.. O.o
Because no matter how rude or inappropriate it may seem to say something that seems right, don;t hold it back.
because....

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
The storm has somewhat passed and although the overhead clouds are still hanging around, light peeks in the horizon.
The strong wind has left most of the trees crashing down, but a majority standing strong and firm.
I only wish that my resolve, no matter how fragile it may be, may even fall under pressure, but yet growing stronger than ever..

After all, somehow things will work out... definitely *winks*


Piece~

Reflection of others~

"Once you were on my mind,

Silently and unexplained you took your leave,

With my silence you thought I was fine,

Left alone abandoned with my trust you reave"

- Fai Fai No-Reason

Hey all, exams are on at the moment and many things are going on at the moment~
Just a short post on what has been going on in my mind lately...
No matter how much I try to deny it, apparently how I seem to other DO affect me to a small degree.
How I handle people seem to be living proof of that.
I tend to try and make everyone happy, trying to reason with them, trying to make the best out of a bleak situation.
I got a "lecture" from my grandmother once about trying to be selfish once in awhile, especially when it is concerns yourself.

BUT

I also have been striving to open up to those around me and see if I actually matter to others in anyway.
More often than naught, I find myself being taken for granted and seen only as a nice guy that helps out around, who is reasonable enough that they can be friendly enough to take me for granted.

What can I say about that?
Will be on a short hiatus for the time being with everything so overwhelming me..
and yet with all these happening around me, there always seem to be a small ray of light keeping me warm on the gloomiest day and coldest nights..

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
The storm is finally here raging around me, attempting to sweep me away..
and most of those that "stood" by me has gone missing, leaving me in the darkness..
and yet a familiar warm hand touches my face with an umbrella over me,
With that strength I wait out the storm...

Piece~