Sunday, October 14, 2012

Getting by~

It has been raining quite frequently recently...
and I have to admit it is kinda comforting to hear nothing else but the pounding beat of the rain hitting the pavement, or the smell of wet plants in the air.
It drowns out everything else, making me only aware of my immediate surroundings, meaning one has to be so-close to actually get my attention.

Who matters?
Who doesn't?
What matters?
What doesn't?

I think that other than the daily chores and things that we are expected to do, these simple questions elude us, even though we are charged to find and search for such answer throughout our lives.
The best part is, it is simple enough, and yet the answer varies with the surrounding  or company one keeps.
One would usually quote that what is necessary is deemed important.

But...

That would dictate which is good or bad? right or wrong? necessary or not?
Who is worth your time and effort, or otherwise?
Open that gold-filled mouth of ours to ask and prod to see who is, in fact, deserving of your presence?

For remember this line always:

"Your happiness comes first. Should another makes you feel otherwise, then that person is not a friend/special one"

Part on good terms, pull up a fight, confront the problem, all these are just a few of the many ways people choose to solve this problem.
All because their HAPPINESS comes FIRST
Knowing and managing that simple fact is the most important aspect of enjoying life.
For NO ONE enjoys doing something or being with someone that doesn't make him/her happy.

One may argue that things can work out, true enough.
But once the seed of uncertainty has taken root, it is hard to throw it away.
One can only get used to it.
For each memory and emotion that riddles us throughout life is like a seed planted onto a 'garden' that reflects who we are.
With each variety of seed, the garden flourishes and becomes beautiful with the different kinds of flowers and tress~
and yet, even though a seed that doesn't belong gets planted, it still grow in the garden, marking its significant present in the 'garden' of our lives~
You see, the plants that grow in our 'garden' are untouchable and not marred by the other plants that happen to be planted now or in the future.
What happens is that we refuse to accept that such a plant has grown in the garden, and by insisting that the plant is of a different seed, is in fact DENIAL to yourself and your happiness.

So do yourself a favor today people.

Look at the mirror, smile and rethink who/what does make you happy.
It may be the small things~
It may be the memories~
It may be the simple company of that someone~
It may be just that time when a dear friend helps out in your darkest hour~

It is simple enough, and yet people don't do such simple things these days.
Remember...
YOUR happiness COUNTS... not others~

Piece~

Fai fai No-Reason's Weather Forecast:
Despite this constant rain pelting me with the rain being ever so merciless, I still hope that those that stand by me stay there. I don't ask much, I give what I can, and yet their numbers dwindle ever so much.
There seem to be no end to this rain, and for that I can only wait, and hope it passes...

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Friends? What about it?

Enuff said XD

Hey all ^^
How are things on your end?
Notice that people always greet one another and say a simple statement or question to open up a conversation?
A "conversation starter" they call it....
Among the many statements that have been made in my general direction today included:
"Hey~! Just got back from the hospital? So tiring~"
"Ate lunch yet? Was it good?"
"OMG today we actually have 3 hours of class.... Do you know what classes we have today?"
"How are you? Long time no see~!"

Some just stay silent and give a courteous nod to show that they acknowledge my existence before them...
And yet, they remain as "conversation starters" no more, they don't have any actual meaning attached to them~
They take you as an option that they can choose to acknowledge or ignore at will, for that is what you are to them..

"Dispensable"

-meaning," Able to be replaced or done without, OR optional, unnecessary, expendable

So, how can we classify people as someone who isn't an option?
In context, meaning people we call as FRIENDS?
Or are they just people that we barely know?
People who you just talk to once in a while just because you happen to meet them from time to time, or as part of a social commitment that ever so requires our attention, least we do not fear of being isolated and ignore by the rest of society?
Believe me when I say, up to almost 90% of any community at any given time is hungry for attention?
No matter how meager it is, each person has their threshold and need to fulfill this daily quota of "attention".
This can be anything, from a non-significant nod or nonchalant "hie" from someone, or meeting and talking with people at a great length, up to the point of hungry power individuals that want nothing less than to subject everyone to his/her will and give him/her their EVERY OUNCE OF ATTENTION.

So, drawing a line between FRIENDS and ACQUAINTANCES?

Simple...
All friends are acquaintances, but not all acquaintances are friends.
and yet, that simple line is blurring out very quickly these days, making friends a very vague and non-existant word.

Asking for your time, friendship and loyalty?

I think you're better off asking for a shipping container filled to the brim with gold....
Piece~

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
There are times where the field was greener on the other side, and yet as I look beyond the light rain that chills me to the bone I see no field.
I stand still now, seeking solace in the numbness of the cold, knowing that I only have myself and a precious few to depend on~