Hey guyZ~!
Ranting today about disappointments~ (been having too much of it lately)
Too much dose of something tends to get to you, even though one has been habituated with exposure beforehand.
For my burfday I have received a major dose of it...
Too much I might add...
Things not what I expected,
Sincerity of wishes,
How my burfday was celebrated,
WHO celebrated my burfday.
I am actually past all of this, since I don't really value burfdays as much as everyone does.
But a friend told me something that if I don't even value and make that day special, then no one will do it for you.
I guess it does make sense in a way.
But again, when I actually put some sort of importance into such happenings, there can only be let downs.
As I have started my community medicine posting, I have been drawing alot of my conclusions based on the definitions from a given formula.
Let's apply the knowledge shall we?
Hmmm...
To calculate disappointment, we would have to find the total expectation of a specific happening, divided by the total chance of it happening in reality..
As such, following the said formula, one can imply that disappointment is directly proportional to disappointment.
Also that disappointment is inversely proportional to the total chance of it happening in reality.
THEREFORE~!
We can concur from the formula that!!!
My usual saying to any kind-soul with an ear that is willing to hear me rant out during my free time~
Any comments?
I really think that I am taking all this rate and formulas abit more literally now that I am in community medicine, where rates and incidences of a specific nature are important in interpreting and understanding the end result...
Was that in english?
i dunno~
Me GusTa.. haha
Piece~
Yesterday is history, Tomorrow a mystery, But today is a gift.. That's why its called the "present"...
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
I command you~!
LOL aaaaw, look at that smile~!
I COMMAND YOU MY AVID BLOG READERS TO MAKE ME SMILE~!
Owh shucks, if smiling and being happy is that easy, why would people seek out true friends and our other "better" half?
Its no wonder that we are unable to satiate every other person around you.
Its also not a wonder that some people work so hard for acceptance to the community around them so they are part of something as a whole.
Its human nature to "want to belong" somewhere...
Some people just can't seem to see others having life at a better vantage point than they are.
They can't seem to watch them from a far and say," Hey, that guy is having things good, good for him~!"
But no..
The human mind does not work that way...
"If I can't have those things, than nobody else should!!", and they do something in spite.
Be the better person people, for if at least one person thinks that way, it will bring a change in the coming generation.
For those people wallowing in spite over other people's achievements, get a life!!
Those people must have earned it one way or another to get where they are today.
I admit my mistakes have put me here today, but so has my self preservation and small bits of determination.
The mistakes are also what have made me ME today ^^
Don't pull down others just because they are more accomplished than you in some way~
There are also others who can't just seem to say something nice.
In a nutshell, if you are unable to say anything nice,
I'm just saying >.<
Some of my usual rants to people that I know,
Owh *points at you* if not, now you know my rants, share them to the world~!!
WORLD DOMINION IS CLOSE AT HAND!!!
Nah, but hey remember this most important fact.
Its not the big things that people will remember you for,
but the small thoughtful things, which some people deem irrelevant.
Sometimes just bringing out a friend on his/her burfday means alot to the person,
So here I give a shout-out to all those people who have celebrated my burfday wif me, be it a simple bringing-the-burfday-boy-out session, or in terms of presents.
Will post up what I received this year in my next post (which could be rather frequent these days XD)
Piece~
I COMMAND YOU MY AVID BLOG READERS TO MAKE ME SMILE~!
Owh shucks, if smiling and being happy is that easy, why would people seek out true friends and our other "better" half?
Its no wonder that we are unable to satiate every other person around you.
Its also not a wonder that some people work so hard for acceptance to the community around them so they are part of something as a whole.
Its human nature to "want to belong" somewhere...
Some people just can't seem to see others having life at a better vantage point than they are.
They can't seem to watch them from a far and say," Hey, that guy is having things good, good for him~!"
But no..
The human mind does not work that way...
"If I can't have those things, than nobody else should!!", and they do something in spite.
Be the better person people, for if at least one person thinks that way, it will bring a change in the coming generation.
For those people wallowing in spite over other people's achievements, get a life!!
Those people must have earned it one way or another to get where they are today.
I admit my mistakes have put me here today, but so has my self preservation and small bits of determination.
The mistakes are also what have made me ME today ^^
Don't pull down others just because they are more accomplished than you in some way~
There are also others who can't just seem to say something nice.
In a nutshell, if you are unable to say anything nice,
I'm just saying >.<
Some of my usual rants to people that I know,
Owh *points at you* if not, now you know my rants, share them to the world~!!
WORLD DOMINION IS CLOSE AT HAND!!!
Nah, but hey remember this most important fact.
Its not the big things that people will remember you for,
but the small thoughtful things, which some people deem irrelevant.
Sometimes just bringing out a friend on his/her burfday means alot to the person,
So here I give a shout-out to all those people who have celebrated my burfday wif me, be it a simple bringing-the-burfday-boy-out session, or in terms of presents.
Will post up what I received this year in my next post (which could be rather frequent these days XD)
Piece~
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Feeling lost
Falling down and trying to grab hold of anything to hold on for my dear life~
What are my priorities?
Are these people worth my time?
Do these people appreciate me?
What do I mean to these people?
Am I doing the right thing?
Still falling,
and falling,
and falling~
Everything in around me passes by, paying no heed to my existence....
Falling...
Falling...
Falling...
Until everything is a blur and I couldn't care less anymore which is evident when I no longer squint my eyes and strain them in an effort to at least take a glimpse of what flies past me behind what seems like a blurred veil with constant changing colours~
When sumone is able to see pass the veil earnestly, do let me noe~
Struggling as there is no manual to how to live life~
Piece~
What are my priorities?
Are these people worth my time?
Do these people appreciate me?
What do I mean to these people?
Am I doing the right thing?
Still falling,
and falling,
and falling~
Everything in around me passes by, paying no heed to my existence....
Falling...
Falling...
Falling...
Until everything is a blur and I couldn't care less anymore which is evident when I no longer squint my eyes and strain them in an effort to at least take a glimpse of what flies past me behind what seems like a blurred veil with constant changing colours~
When sumone is able to see pass the veil earnestly, do let me noe~
Struggling as there is no manual to how to live life~
Piece~
Monday, March 19, 2012
Coping mechanism~
Everyone has their own mechanism, period..
For me?
Well, part of my coping mechanism is eating and running.
Ironic isn't it? I eat my heart out, then run while pushing myself to see how far I can go..
What do I cope with?
Expectations?
Disappointments?
Frustrations?
Eat away~
Hey, I'm not the only one out here XD
Piece~
For me?
Well, part of my coping mechanism is eating and running.
Ironic isn't it? I eat my heart out, then run while pushing myself to see how far I can go..
What do I cope with?
Expectations?
Disappointments?
Frustrations?
Eat away~
Hey, I'm not the only one out here XD
Piece~
Saturday, March 17, 2012
50 Random Questions
A long wierd list of questions which I copied off a dear friend and fellow blogger (Syuu's blog) and figured out hey, y not? dead bored , so anewayZ, here it goes~!
Be advised that there may be weird facts that my be inconsistent to the person that is known to be the author of this blog....
1. What is your best friend's Mom's name?
Don't really have a best friend, don't believe in having a single OUTSTANDING friend (pressure pressure XD) so.. no ^^
2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
On the biceps of my left hand. I dunno, find it weird O.o
3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
I don't really define any person or individual as "hot" before other than temperature wise, so no~
4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
Movie theater => watch the movie I paid for, yesh this includes the advertisements and trailers in the beginning ^^ Dun really heed anything else other than the movie I paid for ^^
5. What body part do you wash first? I think this should be the same for 95% of any NORMAL human beings... HANDS? I mean, you have to know how hot/cold the water is no?
6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms?
No, because I don't go public bathrooms... Simple as that ^^
7. What's the strangest talent you have?
The ability to shamelessly demand for something, especially if it is something which is due *peace sign*
8. Do you have an innie or an outtie?
Like Syu, googled it before I could answer.. innie
9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
Sour Cream Onion. The flavour ish AWESHOOOME~! Nid loads of water after that tho >.<
10. Have you ever been tied up?
No, will not, don't plan to be, never ever~ Not into bondage like those anime characters XD
11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
From what I could recall, I have never been grounded before O.o but then again, I almost NEVER go out wif friends until I started studying pre-U programs...
12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
Drive around the block if my business will take a long time. Parallel park if I have sumone else in the car, or if I am just going down for a short while to grab sumthing..
13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?
No dates every, so no ^^
14. How many times have you been cussed out?
Hopefully never as I don't go around pissing people off intentionally >.<
15. Which shoe do you put on first?
Right, since I'm right handed
16. Your deepest fantasies?
No eye dear~ get it? XD
17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
No gay bar in my country, so can't try walking into one even if I wanted to see how's it like
18. Girls?
Gurls are beings that need to be respected and revered. They go through so much every month; psychologically, physically- regardless of their daily expectancies and they go on to be mommies, who I believe is something wonderful, special and breathtaking..
Remember my fellow guyZ, there is no such thing as a man who does what his wife says, only a man who respects his wife.
19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common?
No love interests, period~
20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
WHUUUT? Didn't even know such an act existed when I was at that age~! True story.
21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
Again, thnx to google, I have a vague idea what these mean.. Cow-tipping is virtually impossible, and I'm not mean enough to pull off a snipe-hunting~ lol
22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
Family and a few close friends that I can depend on from time to time
23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
O.o never, single, forever alone, awkwaaaaard~
24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash?
I would wash them weekly given the choice, but if I had to choose?
Bed sheets I guess, unclean towel is just.. unsightly XD I can always sleep on the couch or the floor, just happy I have a roof over my head ^^
25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable?
Erm... a letter from my school/university? It wasn't me I swear~ XD
26. What was your childhood nickname?It started off with faizal, and a teacher actually shorted it to just Zal O.o then fai fai cam about, once it got shortened to fifi, major wierd~
27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
When I was in the midst of playing Guitar Hero on my PS3 XD
28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
Why in the world would I do that? *opens up the anatomy textbook and reads* Aaaaah, so that's how the opposite sex looks like O.o
29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
Smiling at random people who happen to look at me driving.. I think I was high on sugar or sumthin >.<
30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
You can do that? *gasp*
31. How do you eat your cookie?
Open my mouth, throw cookie in, chew and swallow. Rinse and repeat ^^
32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
I do not go to the gym.. I rather do aerobic exercises like ultimate frisbee, track running, badminton, swimming, stuff dat make heart pump faster~! Yeah, feel the pain, lurv it~ *masochist in the making XD*
33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.
Turn really quiet and look stoned enough until I don't notice people I know walking by~
34. Name one thing you like to see other people do.
Listen to people trying to talk their way out when you already know what is going on.. My especially favourite part is when they try to lie *gasp*
35. Favourite part of your body.
My eyes...They are my window to the world and they are my pride and joy~ but I thank god everyday that I am complete and whole nevertheless~
36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
Me dun drink alcoholic beverages, caffeine has almost no effect on me, and I most certainly get slightly high on sugar XD
37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
No, but if its kicked, then yes *guilty*
38. How often do you clean out your ears?
When I am unable to distinguish what the other person is saying over the phone. >.<
39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Fold, occasional scrunching ^^
40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
Erm... will start counting today I guess? lol
41. Do you have any strange phobias?
I'm generally ok with insects, especially dead ones, but I just can't stand anything with thorns/hook like structures on their body *shudders*
42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Chopsticks up my nose deliberately at a restaurant... Of course, never did that again XD
43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar?
Stand right outside of it and gape inside wondering what so great about going deaf O.o
44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?
Truth for me anytime, dun dare doing shtupid stuff~
45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name?
No love interest ever, period.. So no XD
46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date?
Not yet~ XD let's leave room for the unknown shall we? lol
47. Have you ever played naked Twister?
I have an idea how to play Twister, but naked? O.o and the answer is no btw in case ur still wondering, lol
48. Have you ever been drunk at work?
I don't drink, so I can't get high... Altho taking sufficient sugar to go excited while in class ahs worked a few times XD
49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive?
Well, first on the list would be to FIND a date/lover... then I'll be able to answer >.<
50. Do you want to bring sexy back?
Every time I shower XD lol~
*phew* finally 50 questions over O.o
Ok now, ur task my ever loyal blog reader who has ACTUALLY read this far XD
UR TAGGED ^^
If you have a blog? make a post on it~
If you have a facebook account, make a note on it~
Have fun *winks*
Piece~
Be advised that there may be weird facts that my be inconsistent to the person that is known to be the author of this blog....
1. What is your best friend's Mom's name?
Don't really have a best friend, don't believe in having a single OUTSTANDING friend (pressure pressure XD) so.. no ^^
2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
On the biceps of my left hand. I dunno, find it weird O.o
3. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
I don't really define any person or individual as "hot" before other than temperature wise, so no~
4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
Movie theater => watch the movie I paid for, yesh this includes the advertisements and trailers in the beginning ^^ Dun really heed anything else other than the movie I paid for ^^
5. What body part do you wash first? I think this should be the same for 95% of any NORMAL human beings... HANDS? I mean, you have to know how hot/cold the water is no?
6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms?
No, because I don't go public bathrooms... Simple as that ^^
7. What's the strangest talent you have?
The ability to shamelessly demand for something, especially if it is something which is due *peace sign*
8. Do you have an innie or an outtie?
Like Syu, googled it before I could answer.. innie
9. What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
Sour Cream Onion. The flavour ish AWESHOOOME~! Nid loads of water after that tho >.<
10. Have you ever been tied up?
No, will not, don't plan to be, never ever~ Not into bondage like those anime characters XD
11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
From what I could recall, I have never been grounded before O.o but then again, I almost NEVER go out wif friends until I started studying pre-U programs...
12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
Drive around the block if my business will take a long time. Parallel park if I have sumone else in the car, or if I am just going down for a short while to grab sumthing..
13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?
No dates every, so no ^^
14. How many times have you been cussed out?
Hopefully never as I don't go around pissing people off intentionally >.<
15. Which shoe do you put on first?
Right, since I'm right handed
16. Your deepest fantasies?
No eye dear~ get it? XD
17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?
No gay bar in my country, so can't try walking into one even if I wanted to see how's it like
18. Girls?
Gurls are beings that need to be respected and revered. They go through so much every month; psychologically, physically- regardless of their daily expectancies and they go on to be mommies, who I believe is something wonderful, special and breathtaking..
Remember my fellow guyZ, there is no such thing as a man who does what his wife says, only a man who respects his wife.
19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common?
No love interests, period~
20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
WHUUUT? Didn't even know such an act existed when I was at that age~! True story.
21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
Again, thnx to google, I have a vague idea what these mean.. Cow-tipping is virtually impossible, and I'm not mean enough to pull off a snipe-hunting~ lol
22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
Family and a few close friends that I can depend on from time to time
23. Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
O.o never, single, forever alone, awkwaaaaard~
24. If you had to choose to not ever wash your bed sheets again or not wash your bath towel ever again, which would you rather not wash?
I would wash them weekly given the choice, but if I had to choose?
Bed sheets I guess, unclean towel is just.. unsightly XD I can always sleep on the couch or the floor, just happy I have a roof over my head ^^
25. Have you ever found anything in your parents' bedroom that was questionable?
Erm... a letter from my school/university? It wasn't me I swear~ XD
26. What was your childhood nickname?It started off with faizal, and a teacher actually shorted it to just Zal O.o then fai fai cam about, once it got shortened to fifi, major wierd~
27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
When I was in the midst of playing Guitar Hero on my PS3 XD
28. Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
Why in the world would I do that? *opens up the anatomy textbook and reads* Aaaaah, so that's how the opposite sex looks like O.o
29. What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
Smiling at random people who happen to look at me driving.. I think I was high on sugar or sumthin >.<
30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
You can do that? *gasp*
31. How do you eat your cookie?
Open my mouth, throw cookie in, chew and swallow. Rinse and repeat ^^
32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
I do not go to the gym.. I rather do aerobic exercises like ultimate frisbee, track running, badminton, swimming, stuff dat make heart pump faster~! Yeah, feel the pain, lurv it~ *masochist in the making XD*
33. Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others.
Turn really quiet and look stoned enough until I don't notice people I know walking by~
34. Name one thing you like to see other people do.
Listen to people trying to talk their way out when you already know what is going on.. My especially favourite part is when they try to lie *gasp*
35. Favourite part of your body.
My eyes...They are my window to the world and they are my pride and joy~ but I thank god everyday that I am complete and whole nevertheless~
36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
Me dun drink alcoholic beverages, caffeine has almost no effect on me, and I most certainly get slightly high on sugar XD
37. Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
No, but if its kicked, then yes *guilty*
38. How often do you clean out your ears?
When I am unable to distinguish what the other person is saying over the phone. >.<
39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Fold, occasional scrunching ^^
40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
Erm... will start counting today I guess? lol
41. Do you have any strange phobias?
I'm generally ok with insects, especially dead ones, but I just can't stand anything with thorns/hook like structures on their body *shudders*
Chopsticks up my nose deliberately at a restaurant... Of course, never did that again XD
43. What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar?
Stand right outside of it and gape inside wondering what so great about going deaf O.o
44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?
Truth for me anytime, dun dare doing shtupid stuff~
45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex's name?
No love interest ever, period.. So no XD
46. Have you caught a guy/girl farting while on a date?
Not yet~ XD let's leave room for the unknown shall we? lol
47. Have you ever played naked Twister?
I have an idea how to play Twister, but naked? O.o and the answer is no btw in case ur still wondering, lol
48. Have you ever been drunk at work?
I don't drink, so I can't get high... Altho taking sufficient sugar to go excited while in class ahs worked a few times XD
49. Have you ever found your date's/lover's brother or sister more attractive?
Well, first on the list would be to FIND a date/lover... then I'll be able to answer >.<
50. Do you want to bring sexy back?
Every time I shower XD lol~
*phew* finally 50 questions over O.o
Ok now, ur task my ever loyal blog reader who has ACTUALLY read this far XD
UR TAGGED ^^
If you have a blog? make a post on it~
If you have a facebook account, make a note on it~
Have fun *winks*
Piece~
Friday, March 16, 2012
Post belated burfday post~
Lol a lil late but, happy burfday to meeee~
and of course to my fellow march babies XD
Little has transpired since my last post, but nevertheless I am inspired to post again now and then due to the simple reason of guilt for leaving my blog unattended for too long >.<
That, and also the fact that some of my blogger friends are updating, yaay, updates~! *me a sucker for updates, weeee~*
Like every other year, march 12 has come and past, making me officially another year older.
A much quiet year this year, not much of celebrations.
For me, a burfday celebration can be just 3 people cramped in the car with a small muffin or cake with candles lit..
Don't forget the birthday chorus XD
It's the simple sincere ones that counts~
Although it would have been nice for those people you celebrated their burfdays to come come together and celebrate urs..
I'm just saying~ "would have been nice", but usually this isn't the case~
But then again...
Not being invited just builds up spite instead~
Piece~
and of course to my fellow march babies XD
Little has transpired since my last post, but nevertheless I am inspired to post again now and then due to the simple reason of guilt for leaving my blog unattended for too long >.<
That, and also the fact that some of my blogger friends are updating, yaay, updates~! *me a sucker for updates, weeee~*
Like every other year, march 12 has come and past, making me officially another year older.
A much quiet year this year, not much of celebrations.
For me, a burfday celebration can be just 3 people cramped in the car with a small muffin or cake with candles lit..
Don't forget the birthday chorus XD
It's the simple sincere ones that counts~
Although it would have been nice for those people you celebrated their burfdays to come come together and celebrate urs..
I'm just saying~ "would have been nice", but usually this isn't the case~
But then again...
Not being invited just builds up spite instead~
Piece~
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