Feeling alienated~

Hi people..
Being home after 2 months of hell-ish experience due to exams may seem like a breather...
but here I am kind of wishing I was back on campus, just doing my own things and going where ever I wanted and spending my time with whoever I wanted...
Being back at home, I have to compromise, and that seems to be heavy shackles to me since most of my time at campus, no one tells me how I should spend my time otherwise, other than me knowing my obligation is to study, study and study...

Now that I am done with my studies, with the prospect of getting pass to year 5 of my MBBS, I should be celebrating out there...
With friends,
With those special to me,
Especially with my family...
But how can I feel that way when I am trapped and confined to my house with no room for freedom without having every action I do to be scrutinized if it is appropriate or not.
I want to drive out of the house, meet up with friends~
I wanna just go to the park when there is a nice weather up and about, and just enjoy it, even though we would work out a sweat just by standing outside there for other good purpose other than to keep each other company...
I wanna go window-shopping for no good reason, other than to ogle and admire clothes that I know I can't afford at the moment...
I wanna go watch movies with someone who shares my interest and does not think movies as a waste of time and money...

Maybe I have been away from home a bit too long...
Freedom has made me explored the vast world and now I fret when I am to return to the nest~
When I am at home, I do love my family, but I have to say, everyone is so different now that I feel like I have been missing out on a lot of stuff that just makes me feel even more of a stranger than at home...
What happened to the strict upbringing that was instilled into me?
Why is my brother allowed such leniency?
Why are they allowed to get away with murder, while I get judged for sharing everything with my parents...

I feel like a stranger at home now...
I am bound by the rules of the household that appears to me my cage, which I walked into willingly and without a second thought...

I'm tired, so I'm going to go nap awhile~

Piece~