but then again, I guess I have come to the conclusion that pretty much everything is never under our control, so we have to constantly improvise and keep up with what is happening around us to fit it...
So hey guyZ, hope things are going well at the moment?
Week after next week would be the start of my finals for year 4, and still I have yet to start on full gear for my revision..
Well, it's not like I have been totally stagnant, I have been reading bits of here and there at the moment, whatever tickled my fancy...
but I really have to get myself started as soon as possible...
maybe it's because i have other things occupying my mind at the moment~
Yesterday was my first long run after quite some time...
My pedometer on my hand phone clocked a 5+km in 35 minutes and coupled with 60 leg raises and 60 push ups, can't say I was in the fittest state but it felt good to break a sweat and not think of anything but rather concentrating on how far more can I run, or completing the next rep to complete the set...
No....
The moment I stopped running, my worries and fears come back to me...
Things that I worry about come rushing back to the front of my mind, as it the momentum of my run was keeping it at the back of my head, and now that I have stopped, there is nothing holding it back from resurfacing and reoccupying my thoughts.
If only I can just keep running... until I could no longer run or at least be able to outrun my fears...
But then there are somethings that you care about...
There are things that no matter how much you'd try to block them out, they remain in place, as if carved in stone and no matter what you do, it will forever be there, ever present...
What are those things you ask?
About those you care about..
About those you worry about...
About that small statement that someone close to you mentioned carelessly...
About that person who has been there for you...
About your family...
About your brothers and sisters...
About being there for someone special to you...
About keeping a promise...
About being dependable to those dear to you...
and the list goes on...
They say a person's true character and feelings will only show when they are at their weakest point, or when they feel that they no longer have a choice and they have to make a desperate choice...
What would they choose?
What would they do?
I fear that question every time my subconscious asks me that...
After all... who am I?
Piece~
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