Taking baby steps...

"There are times where you try,

While watching everyone else passes you by,

Trying to keep up with the crowd,

Few turn to look when you scream out loud"

It was raining this morning, the temperature drop alone made me snuggle up in bed for a few more hours.

The rain slowed tapered off to a light drizzle, before coming to a stop an hour ago I guess.

Haven't bothered to peek out the window after breakfast earlier..

Coincidentally, the storm that I'm facing psychologically seemed to get worst as I face it...

Still, my umbrella which tried valiantly to keep me dry in such a dreadful weather is about to meet its match, and end up all broken...

and there is nothing that I can do about it, but cry over the fact that I lost a "friend" in the midst of keeping myself selfishly dry during the heavy rain.

Now, I can only pick up the remnants and pray that there is still time to fix it when this incoming storm is over.

In the distance, I see friends attempting to fight against this surge of fate which blocks their path.

Yelling screaming in protest, they rush forward braving the storm, valiantly testing their will and testament against what seemed to unchangeable destiny set in stone.

What an ironic word... "destiny"

A word that may imply greatness that one is deemed to carry out in the time of need,

Or a word that may imply eternal damnation, an exemption of any salvation as one is doomed to such a fate for the rest of time.

For the fact that I am home at the moment seems to shelter me at the moment.

Making all the things that I experienced surreal and non-existing in my eyes.

Home, a place that will accept you no matter what you have done, or what you have experiences out there in the cruel, cruel world.

A shield from reality, a dome of protection, a buffer from all the hostility that lays beyond it,

which is ever reliable and there for you to return to should one be exhausted from their "worldly" experiences..

We are animals, that much is true and apparent in the so called "modern" society.

No matter how much you deny, there is a sense of domination, territory, self protection, self gain and sexual desires.

Thus we ARE animals, but we do have the chance to BETTER ourselves,

but the effort to do so seemed to be locked away in the furthest recesses of our minds.

True, trusting people my be an issue with me, that doesn't mean I try to interact with people as pleasantly as possible,

as I would like others to do so to me in return IF possible...

It doesn't hurt to smile to others, even if you don't know them.

For a smile warms another's heart subconsciously, and they will involuntarily smile back (most of the time XD)

With that, speaking lightly and smartly is the way to avoid any conflicts later on.

What you say now, may very well haunt you back many years later in your life.

Speak to other compassionately and they will understand that you mean well, instead of making empty statements for the sake of it.

Never say another person is wrong,

as every person has their entitlement to say what they think is right and to also the right to state their own opinions.

Instead, suggest that there is another way of doing things which may seem better instead

Not to say their way is wrong, but there IS a more efficient way of doing thing things, so..

SUGGEST it instead ^^

Wonders in life are hard to come by.

Never compare the love of parents to the love of for your "soul mate".

For each is different and it is virtually impossible to say one is more important to the other.

Its like comparing Perodua Kancil and a Mercedes Benz, two totally different classes.

Keeping myself dry at home, I'm reading away hoping to clear this trial which I face in roughly 2 weeks time.

With the hope that I am able to see brighter times, I begin to persevere starting today.

I believe I have had enough time moping around, trying to solve what is wrong with me...

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast for tomorrow:

With the fear of the coming storm, I close my eyes shut and take refuge by an abandoned building.

I look back and see a few precious friends standing in a distance with big umbrellas in hand beckoning me to join them.

Hesitantly, I ponder if I even have the right to do so...

Piece~