Turning back the clock

"When things happen and time has gone by,

You'd wonder which facts are true or a lie"

- Fai Fai No-Reason

Hey guyZ,
I have been looking back on my old posts and I just wondered what just happened along the way?
I mean, back when I started blogging, this blog presented an opportunity for me to blatantly keep an informal record of my daily happening, an online diary so to speak...
But then as I got older apparently, hearing all those cases where one's personal information can be compromised if it is casually mentioned online, made me cautious of mentioning details, but it didn't stop me from vaguely mentioning things that were the latest happenings of my life back then.
That just went on for some time.... I guess...
The paranoia started getting worst since I heard people can just stumble upon your blog and try to make sense out of the gibberish you type up here and stalk you or something.
That eventually flipped the switch for me not to blog as frequent as I would like to...

Maybe I should just start typing what I want, even if it DOES pertain to my daily life.
With my list of friends growing ever shorter, I am skeptical to even to burden them with my rantings as they are that special to me.
I still try to think that there are things such as good and best friends.
and yet there are things happening that makes the "acquaintance" list grow ever longer...
But then every time when I want to switch off that part of me that cares, a special friend comes along and reminds me in their own little way that there are those that care, even though they are not there all the time.

I used to wonder why people are so hung up on getting into a relationship, even after facing a terrible heartbreaking experience of breaking up recently.
Why get into another one when the last one caused that much agony, pain and hardship?
Apparently they told me that it is the companionship that mattered.
Just someone to simply listen ans share their problems with.

Someone they can look up to when they are down for consolation.
Another individual that actually cares for their well being, in their own special little way.
Sharing all those little snide remarks and secrets that sou don't share with anyone else because of that bond of trust you have.
Knowing that no matter what you say, that person will just listen and not blab a word.




And they told me that if such a person comes along, you'd know...

Thus I actually, believe it or not, made a silent vow to myself.
Should I actually find this special person, I'd treat her with respect.
I'd treat her the way I'd want someone to treat my daughter.
I'd trust in her the way she trusts in me.
I'd find the time to spend some with her, just to know I want her in life.
I'd open the door for her, even if it is corny and old school, just to make sure she gets in the care safely
I'd hold her close, especially on rainy days, just to keep her warm
In short, I'd try to be there for here, in whatever small way I can.

AND if it doesn't work out between us, It's ok...
I'd still remember the memories and the small little secrets that we have.
I'd always know that we had something special together, and that she'd always be sumone that made a mark in my life.
and most of all, if I still do care about her and she wants to leave, It's ok....
For Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with them till the end of time,
but instead being happy for them and making them happy, even if they are being happy with another person.
That my fellow blog readers, is what I think is love....



Own and I still haven't mentioned that vow, my bad XD
It is....

"Should I get into a relationship and it ends, I want it to end on good terms. So that should we bump into each other in the future, I want us to be able to just sit down, talk and laugh about the times we had with each other, knowing that the person across the table used to be special, and is STILL special in a way and most importantly, is that she is happy, even if it is not with me"

Fai fai No-Reason's weather forecast:
The sky is sunny for now and I'm glad it is. Surrounded by the very few that remained with me throughout the storm. I hold them close and we walk on the the small gravel path, facing what may come along the way~

Piece~