Living the way I want to

"No two people are the same,
As every individual is special,
People may think life's a game,
Such are arrogantly living in denial"
- Fai fai No-Reason

Yesh hey peeps. Am supposed to be doing my PBL hand up and my revision at the moment, but hey, I just dun feel like doing it..


Sue me, I just don't know why...


Sometimes I don't wanna hang out with friends. I feel like I fake too much in front of people. To keep up the "mask" that seem acceptable to the public's eye and make me seem like a goooood boy. Fai fai is not allowed to mess up and lash out at anyone in public. In fact, he is to be a good boy and diplomatically discuss a right course of action that would be deemed acceptable to all parties before he is able to draw a conclusion on what to do..

Sincerely? I am getting tired of it...

Friends all around come from almost anywhere. After all there goes the saying

"Strangers are just friends you haven't made yet"

I guess in a certain aspect, that is certainly true... and that I guess, would be the sole reason to why every person comes in different attitudes and principles. For me would be my poking addiction which i can't seem to curb, and upon seeing someone, without fail I would bound to find myself reaching out to the person to poke the person (At the person's annoyance) XD

BUT

I try my level best not to step on anyone's toes.

I try my level best not to pick a fight with anyone.

I try my level best to be pleasant to everyone.

I try my level best to do my own stuff without interrupting anyone else..

and what to I see and receive in return?

-being labeled by outside people

-being judged based on some discrimination from one of their 'hang-out-group' members

-for some reason, being assumed to be an extremely compliant person (I haf my own views and opinions although I don't mention then)

-being treated insincerely and (them being immature) go around spreading stuff and go so much as not even looking me in the eye when i address them normally.


Are people that spiteful? I used to think I am better than that and i should not sink to their level just for satisfaction.. No.. That will make me one of "them" as well...
Just that I think I will be extremely careful with what i say/interact with others, so as to ensure that I am a someone you can mock and get away Scot free..

*sigh* haf to do work now (hoping to do a little at least)
peace~