Filling up spare time~ What should i do?

*Sigh* Just like my title implies, i HAF to pick up something to fill up my spare, i mean ALOOOT of spare time yaar? Still lazy to go around and look for a part time job.. and some of my friends are pestering me to go find one to fill up my free time. I mean, i WILL find a part time job.. sooner or later i mean XD but for now? I'm still at home downloading my weekly anime off the net and watching it in content for an hour or two..

This is how i spend my time? hehehe~

My trip to Wetworld hot springs, pedas was fun, but unfortunately the pics are all in my mom and dad's fon, since i didn't bring my own fon on that day.. Too lazy to take care of it and haf fun in the water at the same time, ^^.

Just finished 24 epsds of Kanon. Feeling VERY down to earth now, since the anime was set wif a time frame of the present. Touching at the end, but a whole lot funny through out the anime. Well, not VERY funny till u laugh ur heart out, just everyday scenes that we take for granted with our friends whenever we meet. Think about it! We just take for granted that whenever we take to a friend, one has to know the right action at the right time?

Laugh when they laugh..
Pat their back when they feel down..
Smile and feel happy when they achieved their goal..
Give consolation when they are frustrated..
Share the good times together..
Know each other's faults and accept them..

Giving each other unfailing support in times of need..

Well, truth be told i'm not really a "close friend" kinda person. Never really believed in the "close friend" relationship thingy. Explanation? Well, let's just say i had a bad childhood memory and it is kinda.. ok, REALLY hard for me to trust sumone, and i'm kinda sure thhat i haven't done that in awhile.. Sure i've had my "best friend" moments when i was small, but never had a "true friend" before. Someone to just sit down and listen. Someone who is able to comprehend what u mean without u saying it. DATS a true friend.

The difference of a "best friend" and a "true friend"? let's discuss that shall we?

For example, a friend calls u up and invites u to hang out at the mall, and you come up with a lame excuse that u suddenly have a stomach pain and rather stay at home... but ACTUALLY your pet cat died and you're feeling very upset..

A "best friend" who just shrug at you and say if u don't want to go, you can just say it you know?

A "true friend" would detect that something's wrong, say its fine, dun worry about it and says that we can meet up another time. He/She would call back later to check up on you and see if there's anyhing he/she can help with..

AND THAT! is the difference between a "best friend" and a "true friend"...

Wow~ funny i typed all that without thinking. Maybe its just sumthin that i've been unconciously been thinking about, and not voicing it out just made me type it all out, allowing the dam of thoughts just wash out without any obstacles.

Though it would be nice to have a "true friend", the fear of losing such a friend is painful. Hey, don't look at me, dats what others haf said, i'm just a person who doesn't really go AFTER friends, but rather a person who watches from the shadows, and determine if such a person can be trusted, and if so, how long? There, u noe abit more about me ^^ piece out~