Want to post more, but just plain lazy XD

hey all! i wanted to post up at least 40 over pics today, but it seems no matter hw many times i try, the stupid !@#@#$ server just can;t seem to upload it! AND so i'm stuck wif the traditional way of blogging, typing my heart out XD oh yea, my friend's hamster gave birth last monday, there are 4 pups so far ^^ looks like they'll make it..

Well, what can i say that was interesting lately? oh yeah, today we dissected a white rat today... Man, that rat was huge! did i mention it was a male? yea, we found out DURING the dissection, haha. We saw all the major organs and stuff. Sir told us we could try and see the brain, but he had NO IDEA how to actually cut it open.. After some trial and errors, some "claimed" to have seen the brain. I wouldn't know! I was running towards the cafeteria to get a bite. Dissecting a rat can really work up an appetite! (I know some gurls tend to disagree with me here, but hey! it was fun no? XD)

My fon's battery is kinda busted.. Can only last up to 8 hours before it knocks itself out by saying "Battery has run out, please recharge". I mean like wth? i only listed to music with it and didn't even talked with anyone on the fon yet! Looks like i haf to get out of campus to get myself a new original battery. FYI it costs around RM60.00 *sigh* there goes my efforts NOT to leave the campus.

Moving on, i'll just go on crapping ya? So do feel free to close the window after reading this sentence... it'll get boring, trust me ^^


Emo.. dat has been a distant world to me, though i feel its approaching me fast..


I find friends to be a very funny thing. There are sumtimes u just crave for their company. Sometimes u just want to be alone. Sometimes u want to join them, but u feel so far away, distant... How is that so? Anyone who hangs out with me long enough might just notice me just glancing off in the distance without paying attention to whatever is happening right in front of me. *sigh* I have to set my priorities straight. I have come to AIMST with a mission, a purpose... of getting my own sorry ARSE into a science degree program.. Heck, it can be anythin, just as long its in btween pharmacy, dentistry and most of all, Medicine (notice, its CAPITAL m XD)

I have been concentrating on sports lately. It seems to be the only thing can take my thoughts to sumwhere else, distracting me from the present that is playing right before me. A relief to myself, although the relief was just for a short while, it brought me back a sense of reality regarding the present, and sumtimes, the future.. 10 rounds around the track, 8 laps in the pool, 2 hours of badminton, take ur pic.. but maybe i just need a true friend around me.


THE TRUTH IS..
I feel so alienated since i'm a mix, and by being one, i just feel like i don't belong...

*Stares at the corner of the classroom, sees a group of chinese friends jabbing away in mandarin*

*Stares at the other end of the classroom, seeing indian friends laughing and joking in their own mother tongue*

*Look into the reflection of my glasses, staring at myself..* Tsk Tsk, poor fellow indeed.. The only "kinda" of his type.. A malay, yet a non-malay talker. Learning to speak mandarin, but when i don't understand whar they're saying, it just reminds me that i'm not one of them, and so i keep my distance..

Weeping in hopes that i can find another being facing the same dilemna as me. AND SO! to all those who keep on asking y i'm staying single and not bothering to go after gurls? you kinda have the answer right here.

omg, all this typing has made me even more lonelier in the world, since i realised this is partly what i have been been moping about almost my whole life.. flowers in dedication to all who understand what i'm going through~
May i find friends who actually understand my problem.. piece out~